I Wrote This About My Ex

I thought it was me vs the hunger…
But it's really just me vs wanting to unblock you
Me vs the urge to text you and ask how you are
Me vs the delusion for hoping one day it will work

Am I delusional for thinking anything has changed?
Yes, absolutely
But I am a sucker for delusion, the limerence of it all
I'm also a sucker for hoping that it might be different this time
Because I've changed a lot
So surely you have too?

Then I remember,
I can't be so sure about anything to do with you
You spoke in riddles instead of just saying you love me
Pisces man ~ sun, moon & mercury
I don't think you're even sure about anything to do with you
You live in the dreaming
In more ways than one

They say find what you love and let it consume you
I did, and now what?
I've loved and I've been consumed
And all I've been left with is yearning
Yearning for the golden thread that bought us together to do it once again

But, I'll keep you blocked and leave it up to the universe to weave her magic
They say fate has no limits
Quantum entanglement, or something like that

So, if it's meant to be
I know you’ll find me
In this 769 million hectares of country
On which we both live & breathe & dream