The Gold & Emerald Castle

My heart is a golden castle
Adorned with emerald green
For a long time the castle was locked
And I had misplaced the key

I thought it needed defending
So I stood at the door and picked up my sword
Ready to go to battle
To keep my fragile kingdom safe
It was that forceful kinda love
That defend at all costs kinda love

But my souls truest desire?

It's that soft love
That drop the sword and surrender kinda love
That there is nowhere to hide kinda love
That you don't have to hide kinda love

The question became can I soften enough to access it?
Finding the strength in the softness is the key to my kingdom

Drippin' down, releasing the density of who I was
Allowing myself to rise high into the ecstasy of who I am

I am here
I am alive
I am free

To be me
In the fullness
Not a watered down expression
Where my ego is safe
But my soul is screaming

I am free from the shackles of what keeps me small
I am free from the shackles of questioning my worth
I am free from the shackles of wondering if the love will ever find me

I now know
The raw truth that has always been
There is nothing small about me
My worth is innate
And an infinite well of love fuels my being

That's where I am now
Hands holding the emerald and gold key
I am expanding into places that used to scare the shit out of me.

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